i miss my home!!!!!!! ..

but what can i do??? even if i shout for several times.
I'm still in the same place, bandar utama and certainly not in my home.


it was so unpredictable when i had cried in the class, so embarrassing..huhu..
i don't know why, suddenly tears rolled down my cheek when mr.derick talked about parents. i can't remember what he was saying actually. the only thing that i can remember was he said ' parents will never hate us'. Do all of you think that they will be glad if you go to Australia??' i think my homesickness had made me cry when he said so...thankfully my classmates didn't realize it, only few of them knew and they were really shocked. they asked for the reason of my sadness....... 'pija, whats wrong with you?? why are you crying???'. but,.. their sympathy make me cried more and more ..sorry my friends..

i suppose to bear in mind that there are others who suffer more .. like Nicholas.. his hometown is far far away compared to me and nasuha also hasn't see her parents for a long time as they are in UK. i should be grateful of my life. i don't want to cry anymore..

God, please help me to face all of this and give a peace in my heart... show me the right way, away from the bad things.....

What should I write this time.. huh…really out of ideas.. I think I just want to tell anything that come cross my mind….

Firstly I want to share with all of you about one of the happiest days that I have ever had in my life. It happened last two week, where I attended a reunion that had been held at Mid Valley mega mall. Why did I say it is my happiest day???.... The main reason is I got an opportunity to meet my best friends. I miss them much more than words can say, that day was the first time I met them since we ended up our secondary school.

Its really surprise to see that there were quiet a number of my ex-schoolmate went there as at first I thought most of them were busy with examinations, assignments and all that kind of stuffs. Furthermore this reunion actually was not well organized. We merely invited whoever studying in Kuala Lumpur and most of them might think that this kind of reunion was insignificant but it’s seemed that everyone appreciates the chance they got to meet their old friends.

There, we gathered at burger king, talked to each other and took photographs. Everyone has changed, the way they dressed, hair style and so on. All of them seemed more mature, their appearance totally different in proportion to last time we have seen each other. Glad to see all of my friends had got good offers after getting SPM examination results, some are doing preparation to study abroad, some are studying in universities and even some of them are already flied to Russia and Japan.

Time seemed to envy with us. About 3.00 pm most of my friends decided to return to their colleges as they have worked to do, same to me and athira , we could not stay longer as we have to make revision for the next test. Furthermore I am actually out of money. I did not know how much money left in the bank; hopefully it is enough to survive while waiting for the next allowance from JPA. If not nothing else to do except to ask my lovely father to bank in some money for me.. but I am trying not to burden him..perhaps…

I miss my mom and dad, my sisters and brothers and my close friends. How beautiful my life if I can be with them….so envy with my friends, they can go back home while I just stayed at the hostel alone… I want to cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you should read more

You should read more… the sentence that always came out from my English lecture. Surprisingly, it was not only Mr. derick who said this during the class lecture, even my last year’s English lecture Mr. kok. I still remember when Mr. kok asked the students about an issue, the whole class will keep silent as we were unable to answer, of course not for all of his questions but almost the things he asked particularly associated with the global issues. It might be some of my classmate knew but they refused to answer, for me the truth was I really did not know about that such things.

Frankly speaking, since in primary school, I could not develop a love of reading though I have tried. Whether to read magazines, newspapers or any books accept for the novels even to watch the news channel, to be honest it was the last program that I would prefer to watch. This is because I easily get bored when reading. Being a primary school-student certainly did not make me realize the significant of reading, the priority at that time were just to read the textbooks for the purpose of getting high marks in examination.

Now, as I continue my study I realize that reading is vital for both academic and professional success. For instance, as a student having adequate knowledge totally beneficial whether in writing essays or for the oral examination that required us to know lots of things. Nowadays World give us variety of reading materials to be chosen for examples we can read the local paper by checking out the news online and books also available for download online. In spite of technology advancements, there is no doubt that the significant of reading has not decreased.

What can we get from reading?? Firstly I would say that by reading we think more and become smarter. For example if we read a novel our brain will try to imagine and interpret the story inside unlike watching television. People often argue reading can improve vocabulary and this is undoubtedly true. While reading books, particularly challenging ones, we will be exposed to lots of new words. Reading books on the other hand, provide information that goes deeper than just classroom discussion. There are many other advantages of reading and I believe everyone knows well about that.

Though I write about this topic, I still want to ask myself, can I make reading as one of my hobbies?? This means that if I have free time I merely have desire to look at reading materials regardless to sleep even to online. I am wondering whether I can do so and is it possible??? Of course as a normal human being, forcing ourselves to do the things that we are reluctant to be is the worse thing but I do realize that I should read more and more. Perhaps books will become one of my attractions. You should read more……………….